Learning to Interact with my PTSD

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything. Just over two months (which I had to go look up because I genuinely could not remember). I’ve been in a place mentally where I couldn’t put what I was going through into words, or didn’t have the ability to convey it in a way that would […]

What Silent Struggles Can Look Like

Fun fact: just because someone never talks about their issues doesn’t mean they’re not struggling. It’s been a while since I have publicly discussed my journey like I was doing previously. And that happened for a few reasons. First, I was tired. On all levels. I get tired of hearing myself talk about the same […]

What a Year

As we get closer to the end of the year, I cannot help but take a moment to step back and reflect. This is partially Facebook’s fault, by having that cute little feature of putting together a “video” of some of the things you’ve posted throughout the year. I was hesitant to even look at […]

Knowing Your Limits

I have been pretty quiet lately, forgive me. I had to take a break from writing for a little. During November I had attempted to complete the NaNoWriMo challenge and actually get my story into book format. For those of you who are unfamiliar, it is a challenge to write 2k words a day for […]

A Moment of Relfection

After having survived my second Thanksgiving without Matthew, I wanted to take a moment to reflect on my journey. The holiday season has proven to be useful in its ability to help me gauge the progress that I have made in my personal and professional life. This time last year, I was very freshly diagnosed […]

Why You Shouldn’t Tell a Widow to Move On

One thing I have learned in my 20+ months of widowhood is that a lot of people feel the need to tell a widow to “move on” with her life. I haven’t come across this personally, but I know an alarming amount of widows and widowers who do experience this. So I’m taking the opportunity […]

Cleaning Out the Closet

I consider going to therapy a lot like cleaning out a closet. When you start therapy, more often than not you’re going in to a big mess of emotions and emotional problems. Just like having a messy closet. The first step is just pulling everything out and looking at what you’re up against. This is […]

A Look at Growth

I have reached a point in my journey where the amount of effort and work that I put into my healing is starting to show and it is starting to pay off. My growth has become glaringly obvious since I have started my new job. I want to take the time to show exactly where […]

Trying to Embrace the New

The theme of major transition continues for me. This time, I am being dealt a positive transition. I have landed a new job. It’s exactly what I was looking for. This is also my first full time, permanent position since graduating college. I haven’t had a ton of work experience since finishing school back in […]

Sometimes You Have to Laugh at Yourself

So I’m going to show you guys the “funnier” side of what anxiety/fear looks like. I am going to tell you the tale of what I am going to call The Wasp-acolypse. Yesterday, I was sitting at home minding my own damn business and suddenly I see there is a wasp in my window and […]