A Time of Transition

I have had a couple parts of my journey lately that I have been keeping to myself and those who are close to me, but now I feel ready to talk more openly about them. First, over the past month or so, I have been weaning off of my antidepressants. I did not make this […]

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Grief is Sneaky

I have been really emotional since signing my lease. And it took me a while to figure out why. And it’s a lot. First, Tuesday was the one year anniversary of my grandma dying. I didn’t register the date on the actual day, but my body certainly did. Especially the day after. I didn’t even […]

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Sometimes it is incredible how much can unfold and happen in a short period of time. For my most obvious example, there’s Matthew’s death. My whole life irreversibly changed in a matter of hours. It is almost impossible to comprehend, to be honest. I have started to view it as an extreme form of cognitive […]

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Struggling to Find Balance

The last week or two, I have been having a rough time. I have been hit with some stress that is unrelated to grief or PTSD. Which was honestly an odd sensation? For so long, my main stress was my grief, PTSD, and the struggle to try to keep rebuilding my life. I didn’t have […]

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So Many Emotions, So Little Time

When you’re a widow, the amount of emotions that can cycle through your entire body at any given time is unfathomable. I deal with so many conflicting emotions on a daily basis and it’s exhausting and overwhelming. In one given moment, I can feel so many different things. I am often joyful and melancholic at […]

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A Look at Transition Phases

I feel as if I am in the middle of a very large and important transition phase. And I have been really struggling to put what I am currently going through into words, let alone words that are sensible and somewhat coherent. But I am going to try, because the transition phases are such an […]

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The Path to Acceptance

For the first time since losing Matt, I seem to be entering into some sort of an acceptance stage. I don’t typically like referring to the typical five stages of grief, I feel they grossly over-simplify the process. But alas, acceptance is part of healing. Acceptance isn’t as straight forward as one would think. There’s […]

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